Before I Die…

On my first trip to London I was making my way to the famous Abbey Road when I stumbled upon a canal under a bridge flowing through a tunnel. Having no schedule whatsoever I decided find my way down the stairs along the pathway, which was quite difficult to find, where I found a wall of moss and a chalkboard full of wishes.


It was quite a humbling find since the reason I had travelled to Europe in the first place was to help me find my sense of purpose in life, to figure out what I really wanted to get out of it all in the end. When faced with this intimidating wall I suddenly found myself pressured to pick something.


What did I want to do before I die?


While death isn’t something I like to think about I do think about what it is I want to accomplish in life before I’m old and sitting in my rocker chair watching the birds. Everyday I question my desires and ambitions; never really pin pointing what it is I want to do but all I can think is, “What would I regret not doing?


I couldn’t help but feel mystified by reading others peoples dreams. Yes there was silly answers like “Shag Ben Green” but some of them really touched me. I travelled half way around the world, flew to London on a whim, and found myself on some side street walking by a canal with people I’ve never mets dreams written on a wall.


“I want to live.”


“See the world.”


“Have lived a full life.”


“Make sure I lived my life.”


And the one that stuck me the most was “Be with Esther.”


I don’t know why but something so simple and profound as “Be with Esther.” made my heart turn. Maybe because it was so different from the others and so simple, I couldn’t help but smile when I read it. It was short and sweet and made me have so many questions. Who was she? Were they together? Was she alive? Did they break up? Or were they madly in love?


I have so many questions and I’ll probably never have the answers. But that’s life isn’t it? You travel the world in hopes of finding yourself and instead come home with more questions, more desires, more holes that need to be filled since you left pieces of yourself everywhere you went.


While I can’t pinpoint what it is exactly I want to do before I die in one senctene I can say this-


I want to travel the world,
take good photos,
write good stories,
create good art,
and to
fall in love with

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What do you want to do before you die? Is it travel the world or be content? Is it being with your one true love or finding your purpose in life or is it both?

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  • Reply
    June 17, 2015 at 7:46 pm

    Hey Shelby 🙂
    Funny… when I saw that same one: ‘be with Esther’ I got the exact feeling you described. It is a glimpse into another life, and one that will never be completed. So interesting! I love that you live your life by asking what you would regret not doing. I think this is a wise way to look at our lives, as we are given so many wonderful opportunities, but should not dwell on our dreams and forget to live (a bit of a Dumbledore quote there for you, tehe). I will tell you a little secret now… I have a bucket list of many many things on my blog, as you may have seen… But most of those things were actually added after I had done them! I figure that, if I spend too much time wishing, I will forget to appreciate all those things I have already done.
    I just love reading your blog Shelby, it is as if your voice lilts out from within the screen :).
    xX Zoe | http://life-gazing-and-wildstrawberries.blogspot.co.nz/

    • Reply
      June 21, 2015 at 9:20 pm

      Bonjour Zoe :]
      Isn’t it beautiful? It’s such a humble and romantic wish. And that’s sweet Dumbledore is always the king of wisdom ;p It’s true though I always find I regret the things I didn’t do or say instead of the things I did say (Minus a few word vomit moments..).

      I love that you have a list up to! I did the same thing I found a bucket list from high school and started working off that so I’ve done a few things on it already which is pretty cool when you think about. Anndddd I’ll be honest though you have a lottt of posts and I haven’t found that one yet so you should link it for me!

      Thanks madam I love hearing from you! I’m glad you’re back :]

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      June 21, 2015 at 9:30 pm

      ps found the bucket list

  • Reply
    May 10, 2015 at 9:16 am

    Wonderfu, all I can comment…
    It’s a hard question, but I guess find the inner peace… No matter how cliche it sounds 🙂


    • Reply
      May 11, 2015 at 8:11 pm

      I think cliches are usually the truth! We all want peace and contentment in our lives :]

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    May 10, 2015 at 7:25 am

    Sounds so interesting! Nice blog!


    • Reply
      May 11, 2015 at 8:10 pm

      Thank you :]

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    Jane Khodos
    May 7, 2015 at 9:50 am

    What a nice post! thanks for sharing! the most important thing is to live life to the fullest!

    xx Jane

    • Reply
      May 9, 2015 at 11:39 am

      Thank you! I completely agree!

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    May 7, 2015 at 9:04 am

    What a poignant post. That one example caught my eye too – hope they get together 🙂

    • Reply
      May 10, 2015 at 9:41 am

      me to 😀

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    May 6, 2015 at 2:44 pm

    This is very touching, I love hearing people’s dreams too. Everyone is always dreaming for something. Beautiful post 🙂


    • Reply
      May 9, 2015 at 11:38 am

      Thank you! I love hearing peoples dreams too they’re always so interesting :]


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